Monday, December 31, 2007
I am having a sad couple of days. I pour a ton of energy and thought into the anticipation of the holidays. Our little vacation is packed with visits, traditions and general merry making and when it is all done I feel a bit like I do when I have had too much delicious, happy-making coffee and the downward spiral has begun. This is all compacted by my close friend dying, beginning my first job in two years and preparing myself to leave my two year old for 3 days (to visit the aforementioned dying friend). Oh and the damn cockroaches, which I hate to mention on my lovely homage to domesticity. We live in an apt.complex and although I have bouts of true O.C.D they are not to be gotten rid of easily, esp.with my natural and non- toxic methods. AAArrrgghhh. So, I don't even know what the point of this post is. I thought I might create a little somthing to honor Rose but I am not ready for that. I am compiling some nice photos in preparation.
I did have a wonderful holiday though. I love both of my families, the Irish, Italian/Lebanese foodie, intellectual, less bubbly side that I have married into and the Scotch/German, Afro-Carribean, Cherokee/Portuguese, French side that I was born into, equally smart but a bit more relaxed and more, well bubbly. Wow, that was a mouthful and that proves that my children are true united nations babies. It is also a severe simplification of the true personalities of our families. The bubbly factor comes up because I consider myself sometimes effervescent with gusto and emotion and I used to feel that I had to tone myself down with some of my in-laws. I guess I was trying to comment on the two atmospheres that we travel between during the holidays. Maybe sometime later I will delve into that further.
I don't have any great holiday photos yet. Here is a pensive photo of myself.